2011, Exeunt

Farewell, 2011. I didn't like you much, and I'm glad to see you go.

In 2011, five of my favorite people in the whole world moved 1700 miles away.

In 2011, I waited months for an internship and was instead offered the opportunity to "volunteer." (And still have no idea what the deal is with that...)

In 2011, I was told my beloved dog had terminal cancer.

In 2011, I became licensed to adopt out of foster care only to learn that the brothers I had prayed for over three months had a forever home, just not with me.

In 2011, I have had more days of knock-down, face-to-the-floor misery than I ever remember having (with the possible exception of my fifteenth year, which is just all-out rotten for everyone).

And, fittingly, 2011 ends with my getting a nasty email from my younger sister, who is always sweet and loving to everyone.

Good riddance, 2011. You stunk.

If God wills it,

In 2012 I will graduate from seminary.

In 2012 I will join the ranks of those who get paid for the work they do (though I have no idea what that work will be...)

In 2012, my dog will live beyond March and prove those mean ol' vets wrong (he seems hale and hearty and well on track to do this, praise God!).

In 2012 I will become a mother. (cue symphonic rendition of the Hallelujah Chorus)

And if, for some reason, all those fail...if, somehow, I die or the world ends or both...then I will be with Jesus, and that will be the best thing of all.

2012, I am ready for you. I love you already.

For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. But if I am to live on in the flesh, this will mean fruitful labor for me; and I do not know which to choose. But I am hard-pressed from both directions, having the desire to depart and be with Christ, for that is very much better; yet to remain on in the flesh is more necessary for your sake. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain and continue with you all for your progress and joy in the faith, so that your proud confidence in me may abound in Christ Jesus through my coming to you again. --Philippians 1:21-26